Fundamentally, we the people are of two types: those who are life ward and those who are death ward. People who are life ward find life worth living. They are not troubled with so called basic questions of life. They are able to respond to demands of everyday situations because inherently they are endowed with the great jewel of life called “motivation”. People who are death ward find life a burden which must be carried. They delay & often complicate their responses to life situations…. Uncontrollably make wrong choices etc.…. Actually these are the people who have been wronged by life & consequently they want to rebel & revenge. But being unable to find the real culprit they have an unconscious desire to punish --- either to those around or themselves.
I have also seen people changing from one position to the other. People who were always death ward, when change to a life ward position become extremely enthusiastic, teachers, spiritualist etc. on the other hand people who were originally life ward ….. Full of everything that constitutes this world & the life …. When they change to other position that of death ….. are a tragedy. Only a few then can dare to explore the truth … the rest are shaken and confused. We have seen such examples around us and often we find it difficult to understand what really went wrong …
You become life ward when you are on the right side of life….that is when you are born & grow up things fall in place the way they normally do … as a child we are given certain amount of libido or joy-de-vivre .. and in the course of our life it remains intact if not increased.
On the other hand when you grow up meeting one disappointment after another your libido is displaced. You either find the whole thing a big big bullshit or become cynical and trapped in a perpetual feeling of listlessness. In the Urdu language there is a lovely word for this position or state --- Afsurdagi. Vohi daireena bimari vohi afsurdagi dil ki .. said Iqbal the great poet … I can’t quite resist myself from uttering the complete couplet ;;;;
Vohi daireena bimari , hai afsurdagi dil ki,
ilaaz bhi iska vohi aab-e-nishat hai saaqui.
Nahin hai Iqubal na ummid apni kashta-e-veeran se,
Zara si nam ho to ye mitti badi zarkhej hai saaqui.
Translated roughly it will mean something like this ….It’s the same old disease of being listless & feeling disheartened. O Saaqui! Its cure also rests with this water of life. Iqbaal is not hope less even if he is bestowed with an unfertile piece of land. For, if this land is slightly moist & wet it will bear much fertility.
When we do not feel like doing what we have said or wished, we are choosing death. When we keep ourselves withdrawn from the position of eminence, we choose death. When we do not value ourselves, our wishes & our choices, we choose death.
When we welcome life’s demands & live up to them, we choose life. When we keep our words at all costs, we choose life. When we see & accept this life and this world the way it is, we choose life. Believe me it’s all a matter of simple conscious choice which we can always make. Right here & right now.
Life’s structure is made in such a manner that the type of choice you make now plods you to situations where you will make further choices of a similar nature again. That is if you keep withdrawn or have a receding attitude … life will bring you more & more such situations in which you will be avoided, not given your valid due & things like that and then you will keep cursing …. Why only me
On the other hand when you choose & demand what is due to you from life , know your inner desires & stand up for them, more & more situations are brought for you wherein you can take a stand & demand for you what you want & of course what you deserve…. The structure is made like that ,,,, the life doesn’t listen to your logic ,,, it simple readjusts … repeat “readjusts” itself to the choices you make.
I exhort my dear fellow living beings who have gone into the trap of death.. to make … the first choice of coming out & begin at once demanding from life what is due to you.
On the other hand the fortunate(?) ones who are full of life are cautioned forthwith that the death is an essential part .. Which you can never part with ,,, as such it is wise to be equanimous when it comes in whatever form, because we don’t die only when we really do physically but there are situations quite deathlike in life ….even when we are full blown alive..